Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in th3blood_tears' LiveJournal:

Friday, September 9th, 2005
2:35 am	i thought my eyes were open i thought my eyes were open to you to your hurtful ways i thought i knew you and why you hurt me but ive realized that theres nothing deeper no troubled childhood no traumatic experience you are the way you are beacause you enjoy it you enjoy my cries of pain you anjoy watching me bend to your will and you enjoy watching me crawl back to you time after time you love the power you hold over me and you dont worry that anything will happen to you bacause i am a servant to your commands i do as i am told i keep myself locked here i keep my cage closed and i feed your hunger i can tell myself that i do it to keep you from hurting others or to keep your painfilled secret but that is just lies i do it because i know no other way all i know is to cater to people its just bad luck that i cater to you i thought my eyes were open to you and your hurtful ways turns out i know more than i want to ~SJR~ (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 8th, 2005
2:31 am	Blood Tear the make up you wear is just a careless mask and while he breaks your heart your tears roll down your face your tears take with them the red eyliner form the rim this careless mask melts down your face your tears turn to blood rolling over your chin the blood rolling down shows your true emotions that blood tear tells everyone your tru feelings youve lost control over so much you cant even control your own tears it hurts you to think this you know its irrational but still you think them you still hurt your self ~SJR~ (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 27th, 2005
2:22 am	What to do i dont know what to do im going out of my mind the peace and quiet im searching for are just so hard to find my head is spinning my heart is racing my hands are sweaty i cant stop pacing my thoughts run in circles my feel slipping towards the ledges i cant find that guiding light with this overwhelming darkness i'll go over the edge i dont know what to do im going out o my mind the peace and quiet im searching for are just so hard to find this darkness is so thick i can almost feel it beneath my sweaty palms i stumble along the pathway i cant see through this everlasting darkness i lost that light long ago it fell from my grasp i have nothing to guide me no one to call out to i dont know what to do im going out of my mind the peace and quiet im searching for are just so hard to find i want to lay down to rest but i fear something might get me i keep going and going but soon my fears will get the best of me my feet cant find a steady hold tree trunks and rocks are crowding my path i step i fall i skin my knee the pain is unbearable i dont know what to do im going out of my mind the peace and quiet im searching for are just so hard to find ~SJR (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
10:18 am	In You In your eyes I see how much you care for me How much you love me In your smile I see how much I mean to you How much you want me In your voice I hear how much you need me How much of me you see I'm so glad that togerther, we're stronger than apart Because now, I dont think I could live without you. ~SJR~ Current Mood: poetic and loved (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 20th, 2005
8:05 pm	You Make Me Shiver You look at me and i shiver You touch me and i cant breathe I dont know what it is But the mere idea of you intoxicates me I catch a glimpse of you And i could faint I get a taste of your lips And i could die of happiness At night I dream about you I want to be with you always I wish you were here now And i miss you terribly when you're gone This test of love you've put me through Has proven its point I'll love you forever and for always And i'll always be here for you ~SJR Current Music: motion city soundtrack-->perfect teeth (3 Comments |Comment on this)